I'm tired...

I’m tired of being sick. I’m tired of coughing…I’m tired of my chest hurting…I’m tired of being a sick , whiney baby. The meds haven’t done anything – so it seems. I rested all weekend and called into my 2nd job to give myself recuperating time (also got a HUGE guilt trip by the dumb hostess when I checked in on Sat. – yeah – really don’t feel bad about not coming in and coughing all over the customers – stupid lady). I’m worried about this week – probably can’t call in again – but the running around and smoky kitchen probably isn’t going to improve my situation…

I’m tired of working my 2nd job. I was starting to think about quitting and then I started getting stupid lawyer bills again. Hopefully I can reduce my days after the first of the year (all depends on my stupid ex I guess though)….

oh..kay..something is going on

So the other day I was complaining about what a psycho Mr. S's ex is. Something WEIRD has happened the last couple of days.
Yesterday, Mr.S picked up the boys for his WHOLE two hours extra that she's "granted" him on Tuesdays before practice. Before they left though Twin Snowflake 2 was adament that he did not want to go to practice and wanted to stay the night at his dad's house.  He called his mom, but she of course couldn't make a decision at the moment.  She promised she'd call him back at 6 - so it meant he had to go to practice.
At 6 she didn't call and Mr. S asked for him.  She couldn't give an answer then either - she just HAD to talk to HER sons and make sure it was really what they wanted.  Umm...he called you and asked...doesn't that mean he wants it? Duh...
Anyway, she got to practice and had a LONG drawn out talk with the twins.  TS2 "convinced" her it was what he wanted, but she wouldn't let him stay since he didn't have a jacket (um this ALL could have been avoided if you'd just let him not have to go to practice) DUMB!
Mr. S and JrMrS went to pick him up after practice (he was also staying), when he asked him to run in and get TS2, he made the comment that "oh mom is probably in there trying to convince him not to go". He also made another comment about how he wishes they could just stay with their dad.  Hmm..either they're finally seeing her for who she is...or something is going on.
They were really excited when they got home and loved the dinner I made (cheesy chicken and tomateos - yum!). They seemed really comfortable, more than normal, and something about them made it seem like they were escaping to a haven. It's great - I just don't understand though.
So today, JrMrS called his mom this evening and asked to stay again.  Super weird...

Where to start?

Hi...I'm a bad, bad blogger. How did SO much time get away from me?  A lot has happened-yet it just has seemed to day-to-day for us I guess-we live at a CRAZY pace. So, to catch up, here's some high-level bullet points...
1) JrMsS has been playing volleyball this fall. It's been fun to watch her, this being her first year I think she did really well (especially this week).  Today was the playoff tournament. They did really, really well.  However because Stupid Mo Valley cheats ALL THE TIME, we were eliminated pretty quickly.  Oh well.  I'm excited that she's looking forward to playing next year and LMS will be old enough to play too. Tuesday is the start of Basketball...

Stream of consciousness

I’ve never bought into this stream of consciousness writing before. I always thought my blogs needed to be well thought out and more than anything make sense to everything – these sort of blogs don’t always make sense since you don’t have the context.
On Monday, I took “live” notes in a meeting for a bunch of company big-wigs for a project worth about $200 million to our company over the next ten years. While I was typing, one of the attendees mentioned that I was capturing their stream of consciousness and it dawned on me that I do this all the time. In meetings, I just write everything – when I start my blogs I have this rough idea and then I always go back and clean it up. Why? Isn’t this my sounding board? My release so I don’t burst into a big messy Snowflake in the middle of my kitchen? So here we go…my first shot at stream of consciousness blogging…
Work has been INSANE the last week. I’ve had so many huge deadlines this week and I’m just BARELY keeping my head above the surface. I moved desks on Friday afternoon/Monday morning and I know that if I didn’t, this week would have been insanely MORE busy – most people don’t know where I am right now. The bad thing about moving is that none of my stuff is in the right place and when I walk to my desk, I walk down the wrong rows of cubes before I remember where I’m at. It’s not that I’ve moved to a different building , or even another floor – I’m on the same floor as before, just on the other end, and it’s not like I’ve never been to this end – I would go over there almost daily, so weird…

On top of my regular job consuming my time, I got a second job this week that I start on Sunday. I’m working at a small restaurant/bar in town a few days a week so I can pay the stupid lawyer bills. I have no hope that my ex will follow through with his obligations. Mr. S has been so moody since I got the second job. I don’t really know why, maybe because I’ve been so insanely busy that he hasn’t gotten his “attention” or maybe I’m reading him wrong since I’m too busy and I’ve been sick all week.

Ugh, I hate being sick. Why didn’t I buy my allergy pills earlier so it didn’t move to my sinuses? I wish I had a spigot on my ears to release the pressure.

I have avoided being a coach for any of our children’s sports up until now. I’m LMS’s soccer coach and the worst thing is that all her little friends are on my team. I never thought 6/7 year olds were like this - they’re like little high school girls all boy crazy and unfocused, ugh. I know my daughter is probably acting out because that’s always the way that coaches’ children seem to act, but I have two girls on my team that will NOT listen and they just fool around and hang on each other every second. It’s so annoying and the worst part is that their parents attend the practices and don’t do anything when I get after their daughters. So frustrating… I do have a few REALLY good players on my team, including LMS when she pays attention.

Okay, so that’s all I have tonight. I have to work tonight :(

Happy Birthday to -- ME!

I'm finally ready for my thirties. I really, honestly, truly am. I'm not just saying that.

I read something a few weeks ago that said we have 3 segments in our lives divided by 30 years each. Our first 30 are our growing/child years – we learn what we need to grow and try to figure out what type of person we will be. When we turn 30, we spend 30 years in our adult years – we spend those years being the adult we’ve become and planning for a fabulous next 30 years. Those 30 years start when we turn 60, these are our Golden years – and hopefully they last much longer than 30 years (like my wonderful great grandma – you suck up those golden years lady!)

I was that person. That person who spent my whole 20's worrying about the big 30. It’s not me anymore. I've been embracing aging. And it's nice. It's a nice feeling. Not panic. Not regret. Just excitement and anticipation. I'm ready for this next chapter.

Good Morning, 30. I've been expecting you.

Fill in the Blank Friday

Fill in the Blank Friday is happening once again over at Life of a Busy Wife. Here are my answers to this weeks questions:


1. One thing I MUST do before I die is visit Europe or Bora Bora – I’m not picky, just want to do some world traveling.

2. I would rather sleep in and have a good weekend day than have to get up early and fight with the kids to get ready and out the door any day.

3. If I could give my younger self one piece of advice it would be listen to the advice others give you, don’t be so hard headed that you think you know what’s best.

4. If I won the lottery tomorrow I'd buy our dream house, new cars, pay off a bunch of bills, take a WONDERFUL vacation with the kids. I would also donate some to charity and invest the rest for our future.

5. The best surprise ever was finding out I was pregnant – both times.

6. My biggest fault is I push myself too hard, rather than relying on the help of others, how much more efficient would I be if I delegated better?

7. My biggest strength is Consistency, Harmony, Responsibility, Arranger, and Relater. Its funny this question came up, the girl that *might be my new boss* just gave me a book so that I could figure out what my biggest strengths were. I wasn’t really too surprised that these came up in the test – maybe I can capitalize on them now though with the plan they send you.

How would you Fill in the Blanks?

If you can’t say anything nice…don’t say anything at all!

I’m breaking my mom’s rule from when I grew up.

I have lots of un-nice things to say today, but if I don’t say them and put them down, I’m going to burst. The last week or so has really, really sucked. Why I ever decided to get married, have kids, work at a job that I can’t leave at work… you fill in the blank… is why.

Top 25 New Year’s Resolutions Every Stepfamily Should Make

This is a new blog I’m following and I thought it was great for blended families like ours: The original post is at: blendedfamilysoapopera.com

Top 5 New Year’s Resolutions Every Stepmother Should Make:
1. I will carve out 30 minutes a day just for me. Whether it’s taking a walk, reading a book, relaxing in a bubble bath or watching my favorite television show, I will make sure to make some “ME” time.
2. I will resolve not to make EVERYBODY IN THE STEPFAMILY’S problems my own by focusing on “fixing” something that I didn’t break in the first place.
3. I will not force the issue of being one big happy family and instead, allow my relationship with my stepchildren to naturally evolve (whether that takes 2 years or 10 years).
4. I will support my husband and offer advice when and if necessary, but ultimately allow him to handle issues with his ex-wife and trust that he will make decisions that are best for our marriage and family.
5. I will not blame the ex-wife for issues that MY HUSBAND can control. For example, if he goes over to fix her kitchen sink, I won’t be upset with her for asking. I’ll be upset with HIM for going. (Not a problem in our house luckily)

Decade from Hell?

Did you see this article in Time Magazine? They say that the 2000’s were the decade from hell. We endured not one, but two economic meltdowns, survived Y2K, experienced the tragedy of 9/11, we have been locked in war for 9 years with millions of families spending most of the decade apart or losing loved ones due to them, we’ve had several natural disasters due to weather and earthquakes (tsunamis), and more people are laid off today than at any other point in history. When you look at it this way, it seems pretty grim out there. Is this the darkest hour we’ll face before the sun comes up again?